A few weeks ago, my mother came to visit. In an effort to organise my kitchen in a way that makes sense to her, she used wall hooks to hang up my cooking utensils. Unfortunately however, the wall hooks were hung with tape and since she left, they have been falling off the wall one at a time leaving no marks. It made me think of how we do a lot of things in life. To save on initial time/money/effort, we tend to just stick things in place using methods that are cheapest/quickest/most efficient, but as we learn in management 101, the most efficient might not be the most effective.
This comes as a reflection as I have committed to a 40 Day Yoga Revolution. This journey includes five days of studio practice, one day of home practice, a day of rest and meditations twice a day along with some journaling. I am learning very quickly that it is one thing to just put your name on the board, but quite another thing to allow for the practice to really affect you. Putting your name down without any real fire is akin to using sticky tape to hang a photo frame on the wall. It is the continuing practice that is a challenge, especially when you somehow end up teaching four classes a day.
In our world of quick solutions and instant changes 40 days does seem like a long time. However as the first week of the revolution ends, I am reflecting on all aspects of my life. By nature, I am highly impatient. My right shoulder is a work in progress so side planks, arm balances, inversions and even crow pose sometimes makes it feel uncomfortable. In my early days of practice, I would get extremely frustrated with the shoulder, and I would push through. Then of course, I would hurt it, and not be able to do anything for a while. Through the years, I have become more patient and careful with my shoulder and apart from every once in a while, it is progressing for the better.
Ah time… That thing that we all think we don’t have. When I worked in the corporate world, nobody had enough time, or money, or anything. Everything had to be done yesterday, and of course, tomorrow, everything falls apart. In relationships, we are constantly rushing to get ‘there’, wherever there is – marriage, kids, etc. Two of the biggest relationships of my life started within two months of knowing my previous partners. Sure they lasted for four and three years respectively, but when times got challenging, we didn’t have the underlying friendship to allow for healthy communication.
Time is relative.
In our world, 40 days is a long time, but in the grand scheme of things, what is 40 days after all?
We can implement personal change in a day, but it is time that will tell us if this change sticks. We can overhaul an organisation or a country just by writing a piece of policy but it is time that will let the change settle through the people involved. We can look at someone and be attracted in an instant, but it is time that will allow us to see if the two lives can fit together.
Why am I doing this?
Like a lot of people, my life is pretty set. I have done things the same way for long enough that it has become a safe cocoon.
As scary as it is for me, I am doing this to allow for the possibility of things coming into my life that will change it. It could be a change in my meditation, a change in my practice, growth with work, the courage to lower my defenses when I do feel attraction to someone, a relationship that affects me more than just physically, a new idea or a new way of waking up in the morning. I am here to let time do what it may. Instead of using sticky tape, I am allowing for a mark to be left on the wall.